F O U R {Colt}

 

On Friday my beautiful little boy turned 4. I can hardly believe that it has been four years since my life forever changed. With this beautiful boys birth, I was re-born. All the hurt of all the years with empty arms were erased. God used such a small little bundle to heel me. To open my heart back up to Him. Still to this day I can not believe that this little boy is mine. That no one will ever take him away. The love I have for him so strong and so special.  There are times when I look at him I feel as if my heart will explode.

 

When I asked him to show me how old he is he said "Two and two makes fours"

Not only is he beautiful.. he is smart:)

As long as I can remember I have wanted to be a mom. And on March 22nd that dream came true for the second time. After 17 long years of prayer. It amazes me the over powering feeling of love. To love someone so much it aches inside. To want to protect someone, to fear for someone. to pray over someone with an amount of love and passion you barley know how to manage it all.

 

 

The crazy thing is I never wanted to be a mother to boys. I would look at other mothers with sons and think to myself, " There is no way they can love them as much as I love my Sara". I thought the boy toy isle was boring. That dressing a boy would be no fun. After all I am the ultimate girly girl, what would I do with such a dirty, crazy little creature.

This still cracks me up and is a source of endless teasing from my sister of the heart, Dana, who has four boys. This little man came in my life and taught me that life would not be complete with out a son. I know pride myself in knowing all the names of the Ninja Turtle. I now spend my days playing trains and cars.

 

I love dressing him like a preppy little man and have made it a game to "hunt" down the cutest outfits I can find for him. He even has my shoe obsession..lol. 

 

I find the dirty constant dirty hands and face absolutely adorable. 

 

 

Being Colt's mother has taught me so much more then I can even begin to explain.

I know I am a better wife, friend, daughter and woman because of him. I absolutely LOVE being a mother to a son {and now thanks to Oliver, two sons}. Little boys are just as amazing as little girls.



I have learned you do not meet the perfect man until you have a son.

And that I want my son to grow up to be a man of integrity. A gentleman that opens doors for ladies. But most important I want my son to grow to be a great man of God that will stand on his faith and do wonderful, amazing things for the kingdom.

( I am so thankful he has such a great father to set this example for him)





I love you Colt more then words will ever be able to express. You are absolutely perfect in every way. Your Mommy and Daddy love you to the moon and back again our sweet boy!!

 

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.

Psalm 19:14