Everyday Choices {Part 1 of Colt's Story}

It is amazing how the  small, overall unimportant choices we make everyday can change our lives.
Four years ago this week I made one of those seemly unimportant choices.

 I went to a new girl to have my nails done.

(I have actually known Beverly for years. Her (now ex)boyfriend worked at the salon one of my best friends ((Tye)) worked at, but really never got to know her well. She had just started at the salon herself)

Simple enough. No big deal, right? I mean really, I have had probably, I don't know, fifteen plus nail techs in my life. Who would ever think anything big would come out of this. 

Not me. Just pretty hands:) 

I do not even know how the conversation got started, but I was sharing with her the baby we lost just that summer {a CPS adoption} and the girl who tricked us just the year before and tore our hearts out {this story is something right out of Lifetime.. I will share it someday}

Any ways.. As I was pouring my heart out she looked at me and said something that changed our lives forever.....

"My sister is pregnant and she just can't keep the baby. She has decided to give the baby up for adoption. Would you like to meet her?" 

So mny thoughts went threw my head...
Did I hear her right?
Is she joking?
Am I dreaming?

Ummm.. let me think. Would I like to meet her?? 

YES!!!!
More then any thing in the world I wanted to meet her.

I think my exact response was " Please. Where is she? Can I meet her now?"

So Bev arranged a meeting with a this woman I never met before in my life. 

This woman, that in a matter of seconds had my heart, my future, my world in her total control. 

It was the next night before Beverly brought Sandy over. I thought that was the longest 24 hours of my life, but as you will see in a minute, it wasn't..Ha!

I have never been more nervous. 

My house had never been cleaner.

I have never changed my clothes so many times in my life. 

I was so scared. Would she like me. Would she like Jeff. Would she like our home.

Would she think we are worthy to raise her baby.

I really do not remember very much from this night. I do remember having to keep my self from throwing myself at her feet and begging her to let me adopt her baby. 

You laugh.. but it's true.

I remember Jeff kept squeezing my hand and putting his hand on my back to keep me calm and reassure me.

I remember really liking her and begging  praying to God that she would like us.

We told her to not give us a answer. To go home and think about it and make sure this is what she really wanted for her and her baby. That we were who she wanted to raise her baby. To take 24 hours to really make sure (THIS was the longest 24 hours of my life)

To tell you the truth I was so scared. I knew my heart could not take another disappointment after losing Avery and Levi.

Jeff and I laughed. We cried. We prayed.
We allowed ourselves to dream
We talked about names.
I started decorating the nursery in my head.
We worried.
We held one another and promised each other we would be ok no matter what she said.

The next night I got the phone call that forever changed my life.

She actually asked me if we would like to adopt her baby. 

Can you believe that? 

She actually asked....

Ummm..Let me think...

YES!!!!

I am jumping up and down.

I am crying.

I am shaking.

I am praising God.

And I am scared.

Scared she will change her mind.

But some where deep in my heart I think I knew that this was it.
This was our baby.

And he is.

Colt was born to be our son.

He is a part of me just as if he would of came from my body.

God made him to be our son.

Along with the gift of this beautiful baby boy, we were also gifted with the friendship of Sandy, Colt's first mom. She has become a sister to us. She is a wonderful "Aunt" to Colt. We are truly blessed in so many ways.


So as we go about our everyday lives, I am so mindful of the choices I make.
I tell everyone our desire to grow our family with one more because you just never know when God is going to open that door.

I ask you if you know of any one who is looking for a "Forever" family for their baby that you tell them about us.

{November is national adoption month.. I will share more of Colt's and Lilly's story then} 

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalms 37:4