Some Thoughts.....

It is so hard to believe just two years ago we were waiting the arrival of Lilly. We lived in constant fear that her birth mom would change her mind (to say she was/is unstable would be a understatement) or do something (drugs) to cause harm to the baby. It was one of the most difficult times in our lives. A time that we truly had to lean on one another and God more then we ever had before. But just a few weeks later we were blessed with the most precious early Christmas gift that made all the hell (sorry for the choice of word, but that is what it was) worth it. Lilly was worth all we went through and so much more. She is the light of our lives and our family would not be complete with out her.
Adoption is not easy. It is probably the most emotional, scary, heart breaking, gut wrenching, horrible, joyful, amazing, beautiful thing a couple can do. I am so thankful that our heavenly Father gave us the strength to not back out. And I am thankful for the friends that stood beside me and gave me strength and for my husband who was my rock.
As National Adoption month gets ready to come to a close I want to just say how grateful that I could not get pregnant again after Sara. I am thankful that God chose this road for us and these babies. The ones we lost will always hold a special place in our hearts. There is not a day that does not by that I do not pray for Levi, Avery and Saylor. In my heart they will always be mine and some day I hope they will know just how much they are loved) 
For my friends that are waiting for their miracle I want you to know I also pray for you daily. Remember God is in total control. And as we wait and pray for one more final miracle of our own I will try and remember the same:)