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The most special Fathers Day ever

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This has been a extra special Father's Day for Jeff and our family. As in the previous post, Lilly's adoption was final on Friday.I can not say enough how blessed our family feels to have been given the gift of having this precious baby girl in our family. Fathers day weekend has been a blast. Jeff woke up to his gifts at the bottom of the stairs. This man is the most difficult man on the planet to shop for. Anything he wants, he go's out and gets or it cost so much that there is no way that I can sneak around and buy it without him finding out. So I really had to get creative. I wanted to have each of the boys to wear one of his Princeton foot ball jerseys and have professional pictures done. But they swallowed Colt. So I decided to just do one with Ollie.. at least I will have another  Father's Day gift in 4 years when Colt is big enough to wear it. It was a hit! Jeff actually cried when he saw it. Colt made this little "Daddy's Boy" picture...

Today is the day....

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 Today is a day that my family has been waiting for for a little over 6 months  .  Today is when my family becomes completely and totally complete.  Today is the day that I can start living my life without that fear of losing my heart lingering always in the back of my mind.  Today is the day that I can actually truly relax again.  Today is one of the happiest days of my life.   Today is the day that That Lilly becomes completely, totally and legally ours.  I can not help but to think back of all those years that I desired a baby. I was so blessed to be able to have Sara. She was and is my precious baby girl. I am so thankful to be her mother and to have watched her grow into the woman she is to day. But thanks to divorce and a horrible ex husband and mother in law, I had to fight just to be her mother for most of her life.               ...

6 months of pure joy

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Yes.. Again, I am a few days late posting. What can I say,My kiddo's are crazy and I hardly have a minute to myself these days. Just three days ago, June 6, our little princess turned 6 months old. I can't believe it has been half a year since Lilly came into our lives. Lilly, my darling little angel.. You have brought so much joy into our lives. I can not even begin to tell you what it means to me to be you mommy. You are such a sweet baby. You just smile and laugh at everything. It is so rare for you to fuss. You are the ultimate "Daddy's girl". When Daddy comes comes home you can hardly wait to get into his arms and you snuggle up to him. So very sweet!! Your big brothers just adore you. They always want to hold and tickle you. Nobody can make you laugh like Ollie. Matter of fact, Ollie is the one to get you to laugh in all your 6 month photos. You started to roll over about 6 weeks ago.. I didn't blog when you turned 5 months because I had surgery t...

thoughts...

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It has been a week and a half since I have had my surgery. I am feeling better, but still weak. I miss being able to do the normal day to day things. Just going out to eat with the family or fixing my hair wears me out. I have had a lot of down time. Time to think. There is something about almost dieing that makes you look at things different. I have found myself missing the old me at time. The self centered, vained all consumed me. Ok.. maybe not exactly. I just miss taking care of myself. I miss looking and feeling pretty. Being a mom is amazing but it takes a toll on ones looks. What I realized the most is... Nothing in life makes me happier then being a mommy. The last 2 and a half years since Oliver first came to live with us in October of 2008. This picture was taken out side of the courthouse in Lubbock right after the judge gave custody of Oliver to Jeff. It always makes me smile knowing that this is the day God gave me my first son. Then March 2009 God gave us our s...

Recovery... Ouch!!!

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My surgery was on Friday, so I am on my 5th day of recovery. I am not usually a whiney person and try be tough. I always bragged I had a high pain tolarence where surgery was concerned. Well let me tell you, not any more. I am the biggest baby I have ever known. I have never hurt so bad in my life. To make matters worse the anestheolgist over-medicated me. My blood pressure dropped scarily low. It was 43 over 38. They where afraid for a minute I might not wake up. I am so thankful that so many wonderful friends where praying and that I am alive today to hug my babies. It is so scary how I could have never waked up and how my children came so close to not knowing me and knowing how much I love and wanted them. I want to say a special thank you to one of my besties, Dana, for staying with the babies on Friday so Jeff and mom could both be at the hospital. There is nothing more special then life long friends. Wish I would of taken a picture of her and the babies before I left, but I ...

Can you say STRESSED!!!

I found out last week I get to have a hysterectomy.. YAY me!!! The surgery itself and the pain afterward, of course is scary, but what makes me most nervous is how am I going to care for my kids. With a 2 year old, a almost 5 month old and a 6 year old I just do not have a clue how I am going to care for them. I can't pick the babies up for a week. This does not sound like long, but Colt is attached to my hip. He is the biggest mooma's boy I have ever seen. Then there is the house, feeding them, bathing them and don't forget the endless loads of laundry. I swear for every load I do, 2 take it's place. Jeff is going to take off as much as possiable and of course my mom will be coming over to help. But she can hardly use her arms and has eye deteration which is treatable, but still cause the most awful migrains (please pray for her). I am looking forward to her being her almost everyday for a week. Then to add to the stress, we are still planning on taking the cruise...