Missing Her....
I haven't posted about Saylor for a while now.It is not because I don't think about her. I do. A hundred times a day. Every thing reminds me of her. Every joyful moment has a cloud over it because our littlest is not here with us to experience it. A perfect example is we took the littles to the Pumpkin Patch last week end (post coming soon). Saylor was suppose to be there. I had planned it all those months ago. I had preordered the girls matching smocked out fits just for this day. I actually put going off almost to long. They were down to under 15 pumpkins. But I knew I would regret not going and making these memories with my three. So we went. I look at the pictures and I know my heart was not in it. There are days I still feel like I am going through the motions. Just trying to get to the next. I know my daughter is still alive out there. But she is not "Saylor" any longer. I do not know if she is safe or being taken c...